However mean your life is ,do not shit it and curse it.It is not looks as bad as you are. Sometimes,life maybe will kick our ass and make our embarrassed.it's normal.who will know I'am now working with David together this afternoon, face to face in a table  after we all
graduated from college 8years.life is so amazing.  
    Maybe those months made me negative,and I'm not manage my attitude totally.but now ,I will change it ,think positively.face problem straightly.keep good attitude to myself.

    yesterday,I told to my girl friend I'm surely will to see her grandfather and will do it initiative.told her don'tworry about it.I will face it.