One in a word, It is money.

Without money, I cann't have a house in Wenzhou. We four squeezed in a small rental house. There is no window, no sunshine all the year around.

There are always many blackbeetles in the room thought I had tried many ways to kill them, But there are always some. Sometimes some mouse not invited come from time to time.  When I thought of the high house price, I will be more dejected . With such a low salary, When I can have my own house in this city. 

In our daily life , I always lived in a frugal live. I dare not to buy clothes or have a meal in a restaurant, I won't eat in KFC but just buy a  little for the children. Most of the time I don't want to visit the supermarket or the mall. Since I will spent the money  if I went there.

Maybe most of people can't understand this feeling .But it is a fact.  I want to earn more but who can help me to look after the children who can cook for them. Some may say  just keep down, it will be better but we are becoming older and older.

The tight life makes me feel frustrated and annoying from time to time. 

Today I am writing here just want to speak out my blue mood.