Actually I have many things in mind and want to complete it step by step. But I did not have so much time. I know some work I am doing now is a kind of wasting time. But I didn't have a better method. For example, about my job, most of the times I just print the labels and send the finished to the factories. But I cann't learn more from my work. I have little chance to communicate with others. Somethimes I feel lonely and valueless.But I don't know what to do if I give up the present one. Since the job is boring but free. If I am not so busy, I can do my own things and I can also meet my son in the afternoon. If I work in a regular company or factory. I cann't leave before the daily closing time.

If I am free now. I want to learn something new. Nowadays I just want to take some pictures and try to clip videos and film out on douyin. I want to learn some new useful skills. But things usually didn't go as we thought. When I watch a skill. If I film by my own. sometimes I don't know what to do. Or I what made dissatify myself.

Anyway, I will try to leran more things and more skills. otherwise, I feel like I am out of fashion and live just like the old ones. 

I also hope that I  can find some time to improve  my english. Since I can just express myself in simple english. I don't have rich vocabulary storage.

I hope things will be better day by day.