I'm here to share my story, if someone would like to look into my early blogs, you'll know my backgroud which I would omit today. Presently I'm doing some acachemic writting pratice after leaving English away for so many years so I'll do today's work as objectly as possible as a pratice.

It is 18 o'clock at the college's libiary where less than 10 people sitting in silence. The reason may come from the date. Little people work late in a sunny Friday afternoon especially when it is just the beginning of a semester. I am happy to back to school again where the atmosphere involved me in is so special and tranquil. I did not get an actually good experience during my study life at home country in which I do caught enough knowledges for the degree. Those years taught me knowledge both in books and in society as well as deprived me with the good traits to be hardworking and optimistic all the time. What I have done is just in average which supposed to be higher than that for I was in top class at the very beginning. One reason should be the result do not match what you pay. The other should be the tired in spirit and dark backgroud showed up during your efforts. And than I went to work and became dying exhausted which is uaual at my occupation. It is something that can take all of the enthusiasm youngsters used to have towards there career. Afterwards some will drop while others ccontinue to do it and become part of the builders of that. I was not that brave and persistant so I escape, that's the truth.

During the dyingly hardwork which left no break to think, I strived. In fact piers in my situation break up a lot which I did see during the passed year for I am not the only one doing that work. I can clearly remember of the times of crying alone. During my college life from 2016 to 2019 is two. One is because a failure in dance performance and the second is because boyfriend(I've wrote it in blogs). But after I met my tutor and began work for hospital, it was countless(maybe 10times in one year). Some are in the hospital form the working problems and the others are from the decision to study abroad.

It is a fortune that my parents supported me. And now I have been in Belfast for 3weeks doing nothing else than enjoy new life. It is time to restart, the holiday had last for morethan 1 month, and that's enough.

I agree with the statement that Chinese students go aborad for their ability cannot enable study at home. Pay money to run away is the truth. But to searching for a better way of life and a possible method to restart my career is also true.

But I think I have forget the way to be a good student, for jobs do need people to be sharp and tricky which has already be parts of me which is so fast in just one year for the miserable it shows. 

I just want the money and time I've paid for this restart chance paid of.

Best wishes to myself and someone who may suffering.