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I notice that I am so lonely though I have a busy work surrounded by human, living with parents not alone, and I have close friends who can go out at weekend for leisure.
I figure it out mainly when a workmate sitting behind my back everyday, refused to provide a form-pattern when I asked for it. She refused and explained that it was useless and now we do not need it. That is the truth. However, I have required it from her for several times this month, which was consented before but delayed to send the file. Is there a "must" for her to stop sending me just a single file on the computer which is actually a seconds small affair? It seems that she do not want to share any experience at work, to protect every of her masterpiece at work to be "copied" by others.
This may because of her personal character, but that still make me feel bad all of the day. I don't really required the file at this moment, just would like to get that in case for future emergency which I do not want to be rushing at that time. I felt lonely, solitary both at work and at home, though I have all the good-looking environment a human can get for life at this period.
Sometimes I wish that I could got more work to do, feeling all of my hours and vacant to think about this torturing things. But I really hate the exhausting work which required long-long hours, but actually make no sense. We got so much messages to read today, but I start to lose the ability to enjoy reading.
