Have you ever heard of such kind of person who is very respectable when he is sober, but totally the opposite when he is drinking too much wine. I am that kind of person.
I used to be a teacher, and I am good at making complex things simple. Something may seems difficult to others, but when I use my way to explain to them, they can understand the key point easily.
"You are a fine, responsible and capable man. I am glad that we can work together and be your friend." I am willing to help the others, so many of my new friends or colleagues would say something like this to me when they ask me out to have a dinner together or have some drink together after my doing them some favor.
So this is who I am like when I am sober. But when I go out to have fun with my friends and drink too much, I would become someone who you hardly know.
Last Sunday, after several days' hard work, we decided to drive to a city nearby to have some sea food on the beach. We invited a lady to come with us, who was a friend of my colleagues but I never met before,just heard of her. The sea food was very delicious and the weather was very fine. With the sea wind blowing on our faces, we chatted,ate and drank in a very good mood. It was still early when we finished the dinner, so we decided to find a KTV to sing.
When we were in one of the KTV boxes, we called many bottles of beer. Some of us began to play dice and some others sang. I am not bad at singing and I like singing. So I chose several songs which I was good at and started singing. But singing without drinking was really boring, so after two or three songs, I turned to play dice with the others.
A while later, a lady came in. She is a friend of my colleague and she is local. She is good at drinking and also good at singing. So we sang together for several songs and drank a lot during this time. For the reason that there were two beautiful ladies sang,drank and played dice with us, and what's more important,I did drink a little too much. So I began to be not myself. I began to be over excited and talked too much. In fact, I might don't know what I was doing or what I was talking. Then there was a moment I pulled one of the ladies' hand and dragged her to my side and hugged her, which I didn't know at the time until two days later my colleague told me. I was totally unconscious at the moment. I felt so sorry and ashamed about this.
I tried to say sorry to the lady to convey my apology,but my colleague said there was no need for me to do so. It was nothing big deal and his friend would understand that I was so drunk that I did that to her. She would not keep that in mind.
This is just one very simple example that who I would be like when I drink too much. The consequence of this incident wasn't very horrible. But there were several times when the consequences were really very terrible. And I really don't want to talk about them anymore, it will just reopen my wounds and cause me regret again.
I am really not good at controlling myself, especially when I am drinking. Is there anyone of you can have some ways to correct this bad behavior. I would appreciate that.