I have never fallen in love with a girl, so I have nothing; I have never excelled in a certain subject, so I am no good. Every time I think of this, I almost feel like dying. But when I think of the lines in The New King of Comedy that “whatever it is, you should never give up,” I set my teeth just to believe that by willpower I can change my destiny.

However I am broken away from society, I should have confidence that I am connected with people who truly care about me. I should not say bad words about those who hold me in contempt, because my present conditions don’t deserve admiration. I should start from the bottom of ranking in all the acquaintance, and be modest rather than envy.

I have learned one thing: never write things that are pessimistic. However much pain I have in mind, I should first solve it, or else they are not worthy to be shared. In this way writing helps me to deal with problems, and actively to become happy.