Account my figures i'v been here 4months appromately, backward what happened to myself, it's hard to say, the busier we got, the more mistakes i made. sometimes blame came out from my fault, sometimes i feel i was so stubborn that my colleages dared not talking with me again, admitting that's my bad. for my individual, quiet and no talktive, lots of time i listened to what they (who have already been married and have family, son or daughter) were talking about, few times i joined in their topics, which were beyond my care, maybe it's another dismertus of mine, the less trival matters i envolved in, the better i felt, but besides sth related with decent and offical work, you know. i'v accounted that since i stepped in this company, about 40 amounts of shipping docuemnts i'v done. flankly it's really exhaunted period from June to Oct.
One impressive thing is that some sheets of document must be finished before the day tonight, i was tired, at about 7:30 pm one of my Shifu and i stayed in office to complete what need to be done, after finishing my job,i stood up, picked up my hand-bag forward to the door without saying anything. Feeling i was about to go, my Shifu blursted that"hey, have you finished your work? if u did, how can't u tell me, then i could do the proceeding process..." Hearing that i was hurt, and strong sense of shame beat myself. i don't know how,i just felt that tired, everytime if i feel sth discomfortable, be quiet, say nothing nothing! that will be egxaperate sb i know, but it's me. what can i do for this!!! that time i feel how bad my temper is!!! on the other hand apologise to him i should!
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After all, i'v passed the probation, but now bosstress doesn't increase my salary, my bad again, i didn't argue with her ever, should i talk it with her now? is it good time to say with her? in case she said" no more salary, we are in slack season, no much more benifits..." then what should i do? On average degree how much money could we ask for increasing? 500 or sth??
Give me help, pretty friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!