Dear baby,

Gradually I am used to my new life. Being alone is not good but many would envy my independence and quietness. With time fleeting, the wound heals. While the past fades out, the sun jumps off the horizon and shines upon the world.

During the break, I meditated a little over the benefits of being alone.

Loneliness seems to be the only drawback after you left, but many benefits follow.

I will no longer hurry back in order to prepare a meal for us.

I will no longer worry about being called upon by the superiors because I really donot want to absent myself from you if possible.

I will no longer keep note when you will be on duty which is really a headache.

I will no longer feel sorry for you when you are hurt by unpleasant remarks from superior or peers alike because it is needless for you to tell me now. Somebody else will be a better listener.

I will no longer be anxious when you tell me that you have some mild discomfort, knowing that all will be taken care of.

I will no longer think about what your families will be like and how to cope with them if we were together.

I will no longer harbor any hope that some day  we will have a baby which needs my whole hearted effort, no matter how happy it might make me.

So look at those good things after you left me, why should I be upset and fall into the abyss of despair? The proverb goes that: without venture, without gain. What I am going to say is that I should gain a lot after losing you. I will never get over the fact that while we are still in love you quickly surrender yourself to another man. I have told you several times that being coolheaded helps you in the long run, but you will not listen. Now you rejected my advice and abandoned my sacred feelings , so, winning another man over, you will lose me completely. I donot think you are unscrupulous, but that you have no trust in my feelings, an unselfish feeling you will never have. Although I have had flirted with many girls before, I have never told them I loved them or I would do my utmost to help them. After my mother’s decease, you are the only one that I have seriously care for in this world. I was irrevocably hurt by you, so there is no turning back in our relationships. Do forgive me if I have made promises which you haven’t taken seriously. Let the past pass by. You have made a good start now, so should I. I will resume my old habit, making study and work my priority. I will spend more time with my family and try my best to make them happy, even though I know they might not make me a happy man.

I will be sad for some time, but it will pass. I know my beloved is no longer the woman I love, so the pain will gradually diminish and dwindle into nothing. As you have said before, I will come to myself within a year. We donot belong to the same world. You live in reality, I in dreams. It is good that we separated in time, lest the damage might have been severe, to our families and ourselves.

You might think this letter is very unfriendly, but you will benefit from it. From now on, it is unnecessary for you to care for me; you will pour all your energy and passion on your new love, new home and new family. Intimate friends must be intimate. Distance will eventually alienate us sooner or later.

We have listened together about “ The three baskets” story. It is better for you to watch over only one basket, which is rightly yours. The other basket looks bountiful, but they might not be yours. So is success. Without patience and perseverance, one will harvest nothing.

I have loved you with all my heart. I have to thank you that you have made me know what is true love and who is the other part of me. I will stop thinking about you now, because every time I think of you, I still can’t help crying like a baby.

 Adieu

 Baby.

                                                Yours Huckabee