Recently he was in a bad mood because of the breaking-up between his GF and him. He felt in a total loss, having nothing in mind although the relationship lasts for only three months and three days. He did not have the ability to make perfect the relationship, maybe determined by his nature of being imaginative to a degree of deceiving himself that everything is in a good condition whatever the reality is.
When he came back to Nanjing yesterday, he shaved all his hair off, cancelled all her information. A large amount of regrets hit upon him that he remembered her mobile number as he did in the last relationship. He swore to Buddists that he will never ever recite anyone's number before marrige. All kinds of beautiful memories flooded back like he has just waken up from a long dream. He is still wondering about the real reason of her departure, and he is certain that she was not fully prepared for their love even when it really happened. How can he believe of true love after numerous ups and downs? When you take a serious attitude toward the world, what the world returns to you is different kinds of failure. A famous person once noted, 'behind a man's glorious success lies a huge amount of failure when he was young.' But all these years' experiences made him lose faith in life gradually, finally making him take no more positive attitude.
He will hesitate for a long time before anyone asks for his care. He always says to himself that he has got all things that almost everyone around him puesues at an uncountable cost of precious love. The Buddists have a fair attiutde to all human beings, that when you stand on the peak of a high mountain, lonliness will be your final company because few people could climb to that height. Time grants nobody the chance to go back to the old times, leaving only behind the poisonous memories to make people suffer from pains. If he could get one chance to relive his life, he would choose love instead of fame. He is predetermined not to be a politician, he doesn't have the desire to control the world. What he bears in mind from his childhood is only to have a comfortable family life. And this is his greatest dream especially when he came to this lonely point.
Fortunately he has his final back-up, his best friend. She has never abandoned him since they have known each other. He knows clerly that even the whole world collapses, she will always be the one that supports him strongly.