Treat yourself nice. If others treat you that bad, there is no reason you should feel pity about yourself. Why live a life in the others. Don’t care too much about the passerbys. The more you care about them the more you get hurt. Once you care too much about others, you give others the right to hurt you.

My friends asked me to make a choice about them and my new friend. It is really hard, them are like my hands and legs. Both of them means a lots to me, they have different functions, they shouldn’t be compared with each other. But they still force me to make a choice. I’ve been suffering this for a long time, and couldn’t bare it any more. So I broke up with my old friends. But I don’t know if I should be with my new friend. I even don’t want to mak friends with anyone. I don’t want get hurt. It is really hard.

I am afraid my new friends that my new friends may not feel safe with me at the begaining. But now I feel unsafe with anyfriends. They will be the past. My experience tells me, I have lost multiple friends due to different reasons. I don’t want to have the feeling of losing anymore. It is painful, I can’t get through a situation like this any more.

I want focus on my career, I tried,but still can’t. I don’t know what to do. Should I have a life alone or make some new friends? With the feeling that they may hurt me in the future and become passerbys. Shoud I be alone? Can I be alone? Can I do that ? can I be cool enough to have an alone life?