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The end of summer vacation is imminent, and I will go back to school in a few days. I still remember the summer vacation before I went to college, I walked out of the small town for the first time. A friend who was studying in Hunan Normal University asked me to come to Changsha. It was also the first time I visited the college campus, living in an environment only mandarin is spoken. My friend encouraged me to speak mandarin with them. However, I was too shy and timid, seldom to communicate with others in mandarin. I also went to another city Yiyang, where my cousin got married. At that time, the world is fantastic to me. I hope the upcoming college life will satisfy my curiosity. Although it could not be called a success, since I attended the College Entrance Examination for the second time, still didn't have the chance to an ideal university, I said to myself I must study hard and realize my dream of stduying in BFSU, or at least get the chance of receiving futher education.
Now four-year college life came to an end two monthis ago. The little dreams came true. I did have learned a lot from college life, did have a lot of fun. Moreover, I have the chance to get futher education. I often asked myself, how you come this far. But that's it, now I must keep a calm mind. That is what I wanted four years ago and God answered my request. I appreciate his goodness and understand it is another opprtunity given by Him to test the relationship between Ruis and I. So accept it and let it be. Don't be afraid to lose and be confident. Only if we make efforts towards the same direction, our life will be better.
This summer vacation before my graduate school life, I also went to other cities, and new dreams came along. At the beginning of last month, I was in Changsha; in the middle, Chenzhou; at the end, Shenzhen. I came back from Shenzhen at 4 o'clock this morning after a 12-hour long distance bus. It is so cold that I shivered in the cold wind. Although it took a few minutes to come home, I felt it not good to leave my college classmate alone there and I didn't dare to take a taxi in the dark, since I think it is not safe, so we talked much and went home after dawn.
The reason I didnot come here as frequent as before is not only because I have no internet, but also when I could surf the internet, still not convenient for me to come here. I didnot have part-time job this summer vacation. First I wanna find a job in Changsha, get none. My Mom told me a neighbour liked me to teach her son English, but later there is no news. Then I went to Shenzhen, the moment I arrived I found the ultraviolet radiation is so strong. Although the temperature there is lower than it in Hunan, peopel tan easily under such strong radiation, me included. I mentioned I was tangled for a few days. Actually it is not because I broke up with my boyfriend Ruis, but because another female friend. She advised me to find a better man, nearly everyday. All she said about Ruis is sarcasm. I was hurted when she often talked about him in an ironic manner. We have been together nearly three and a half years and have gone through a lot, and love each other deeply. I know we cannot be so sure what happen in the future, still many things to test our relationship. I don't consider what she said is for my benefit, if her thought is to let me to live a better life, just bless me instead of finding a better man, instead of hitting him when he is down, when he was desperately in need of support. I even don't understand her definition of a better life. I am contented with my present life. Perhaps she thinks the guy she intended to recommend to me is the ideal type, a tall cadet, whose father is the biggest real estate boss in Changsha. Perhaps she thinks Ruis couldnot deserve my love in the respect of appearance. I believe in fate, and just want to love once then get married all the time. I think it must be painful if one experience too many relationships. This kind of idea is rooted in my mind. I don't mind whether he is handsome enough or not, since all of us will get old and beauty, handsomeness will fade away with time, all we should cherish is a heart with love, right? How happy if a couple still love each other when they get old. Never compare the deepness of love, but stive for love with all the trimmings.
Later I thought I shouldnot consider too much about her views and felt relieved. To find a better man, maybe a more handsome, taller, wealthier man, is her dream, not mine. There is no need for me to do that. Believe me or not, it is strange that few companies notified him to have an interview. But when I delivered his resume online, he got many phone calls. Haha..Friends were also surprised because it is the same resume. I revealed my sentiment in the former part, because we have to be in two different places and start our long-distance relationship. If he went abroad, that would be exotic love. A company planned to hire him as an interpreter who is asked to work abroad most of time, countries including India, Pakistan. We thought it not safe since it is easy to get infectious diseases there. His family had the same thoughts, can't imagine how hard it is if he went abroad. Now, it's ok. He gets a fairly satisfying job. By the way, it was me who sent his resume to this company, haha..A bosom friend joked me I have a good-luck face. Hope so. Heihei.
I try to keep back tears when I left yesterday but failed. Parting is torturing. The coming days is also a test. I recalled a lot when I was on the coach, thinking a lot, still ask God to bless us. I saw through Ruis just pretended not to be sentimental, tears wet the pillow when he told how lonely he was when he came back home and after seeing the card I left, he was close to tears. I study hard, you work hard, try to move on in the same direction, everything will turn out to be very good. Come on! A new start, a better future, better us.
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Post comment Comment (9 replies)
- Reply linda@crab
- really one long story
are u ok? new semester new begain. everything will be better. i mean better u know what am i saying. hehe
- Reply Sheena1208
- linda@crab: really one long storyHaha..I am OK. You are really patient enough to read over such a long blog.are u ok? new semester new begain. everything will be better. i mean better u know what am i saying. hehe
- Reply rich
- i was kind of moved by your story. you're so pure, so determined, so much in love with the guy. i dare say there're few people like you in this world. wishing you happiness and the best of luck.
- Reply snowflying
- sheena, so glad to see you come back finally,more glad to read your this long long long blog to share us, because ao many friends care you, wonder whether your status well enough. now we can finally relief too. congratulate for you,for your boyfriend,for your good godness(because i always believe god someway)!
your story is touched, even i think nearly move to the film,as a educational type about the modern love marching! great!
- Reply Sheena1208
- rich: i was kind of moved by your story. you're so pure, so determined, so much in love with the guy. i dare say there're few people like you in this world.Heihei, thanks. Indeed nowadays girls tend to be realistic. Among thousands of people, it is kind of lucky to meet, luckier to fall in love, why not cherish the love of each other? If we try to find a new pair of shoes ceaselessly, perhaps we will miss the suitable shoes. I am always so stubborn, maybe someone willnot agree with me. Anyway, different people have different ideas. So many things in the world are beyong our understanding. It is important to be ourselves.
A new day, have a wonderful day, friend.
- Reply Sheena1208
- snowflying: sheena, so glad to see you come back finally,more glad to read your this long long long blog to share us, because ao many friends care you, wonder wheHaha, indeed, it is too long maybe few people can bear my wordiness. Hope he and I can stand the test and get a good result at last. Each day in the world, people get together or broke up, I just need us to be together all the time. God bless us. Haha..
- Reply linda@crab
- Sheena1208: Haha..I am OK. You are really patient enough to read over such a long blog.
- Reply landor
- good luck ,i am in the same situation with you for my GF will go to futher study and i have become a worker.
- Reply Sheena1208
- landor: good luck ,i am in the same situation with you for my GF will go to futher study and i have become a worker.God bless you, too. Heihei. Work hard. Your girlfriend could come to your city after graduation.
