I have to say I am a loser. When I look back, there isn't lack of success, but at the moment, I can feel I am falling, because everything around me is a mess. So I raise the question today, what do I want? Where should I go? And how to live in the later half life? I am just tired and need someone real to comfort me.
If the purpose in life is earning lots of money, then I have to say, money is just paper, what I need is you. But without money, we can't go far. So the first step is to earning enough money.  Okay, the next step is to find the right one to be together with. I always keep distance from others, as I know I must give all my love to the one who I cherished with. I always feel lonely, but I know I can bear and till that day, I will find my surprised one who I look for. The next, is to do the normal things and accumulate wealth and knowledge and fame.
But I doubt, if what I listed is the life that I want. I have no idea, I need someone, but I don't have. I spend some time on writting but I didn't make good results, which means I have no talent. The terrible things is I stucked in gambling machine, I always to go there and I lose all my money, this is not the worst, the worst is I borrow some money from internet, and now I need to pay for a year's liability. I am currently mad now, but knowing this will over and be a past, I still have hope to chase for my dream, so I always tell myself I can manage this.
What do I want? I forget to say, I need a baby, and of which to continue my name. This is the hardest thing, and now I can't miss opportunities as I am an middle year man now, I have no time to lose. Every minutes is precious, I must change and give all I can.
I am a lonely man with several stories, but the most excting part of my story is I will witness the course of the whole history, but everything is made by myself, it may not be true and real, but it doesn't matter, just leave it there and to see what results it create. This is in my book "Time and the stars" , but it is not perfect, it has flaws, and I can't cater everyone. But to make a book successful is always a dream I want.
Hi, friends, after reading my words, it time for you to answer what do you want?