Looking back it seems that my months went really nuts and I was like a nonstop spinning planet that kept fighting against my own gravity. Were these burdens I set up for myself as the Zen theory said? Somehow I just couldn’t ignore them. I had to hold on.

   There are certain times in my life when I came across really shit times. When I didn’t do well in an exam, which was my childhood main concern, or when I wasn’t the nice girl as my parents expected me to be, I got kind of depressed. Now I’ve got new issues to worry about. Ever since I’ve graduated from university, I realised from the reality of the society that I’m not a student anymore, so that I have got no rights to act like an innocent student. What I need to train myself now is to find the right solution to every possible problem that arose at work. There will be no more encouragement, only negative outcomes for me to enjoy. ---- That has given me a harsh lesson on finding out who I really am.

   Thus, Melissa, stop whining, and look at yourself in the mirror, pulling through. If this is the world I choose to be in, and I will work on it. By plowing and sowing on a barren land with bare hands, I will make a beautiful garden out of pure dirt eventually. So far the core issue has been solved. Faith is still with me. ^ ^

     Alright, then I am able to talk through the rest. I’ve been persuading myself hard trying not to avoid the problems too. I think in a long run this benefits me a great deal. It’s just like that messy hair only needs a bit of patience to fix instead of cutting the whole chunk off.

      After principle No. 1, there will only be left some detailed work to tick off. Maybe after trying every possible way, I still won’t get a satisfactory result. I tried at least anyway. And I won’t be regretted.

     The magic of all is actually not the simple words pull through, but the action to perform. Yes, move your ass!:p

Melissa, promises to post some interesting stuff next time on her blog:p