----Well, there should be a time that I get some pieces of ideas, instead of putting and editing them into a complete thought or opinion, now and then I'd expose these "quarters of the elephant" as Banville has once described his books in an interview.
(To update friends here, I went to Europe in September to get a Master degree in Leuven, which happens to be the oldest university in Europe, and indeed has lived up for its fame in that way.-:p )
Christmas is all around, what miracles can't happen?
My roomate came back from her Lady's Night party joined by her female classmates with some very touching love stories, and we had a wonderful chat over this topic. Love is love, it can be bittersweet though, it's worth you doing whatever you can or can not to perform the act of it and to fulfill the idea of it.
I'll briefly elaborate the story again. Being an Islamic Turkish girl, when she was still little she had a choice of wearing veil or not for the rest of her life. Regardless of the persuasion from her family, and even her powerful dad, she sticked to the idea of wearing it, leaving her real phsical appearance only for her future husband. It did sound outrageous and moreover she happened to be a girl who liked to make herself looking prettier, yet this beauty wouldn't be seen by the boys hovering around her everyday in her middle school years.
There's only one EXCEPTION. The first impression she had sensed her future husband to be was merely of a bright ray of light, and at that time she couldn't even open her eyes bearing the idea of questing the answer from God that if the one standing in front of her was actually a living human being. She was baffled and slightly opened her eyes, and there he was, smiling right back, glowing with opulent sunshine behind him, and subtly, the bud of love has buried in her(their) heart(s).
Then she found out that boy was the icon of entire school. He's the top one while she barely could squeeze herself into top 100, and there's the distance between them. The silence and untouchable sentiments annoyed her a great extent, while eyes become the mouth to utter semantic meanings. It's truly as the Chinese singer Chen Sheng has once sighed with emotion: "There are words merely heard by those who pursue the same dream."
Rumors arose. Gossip worked everywhere, from glamorous Hollywood celeberity life to common Turkish middle school students' fantasy. They were caught eye contacting or passing the signal of love, from some sharp- eyed gossipers. After hearing this, the girl couldn't hold the ambiguous relationship between them and decided to write the boy an email, then she sent one with her confession of asking for his answer. He didn't reply the next few days. The girl struggled with expectations and depression and checked her email account every single day. Then fianlly the answer email had arrived. The title grieved her.---I'm sorry!.
Could that be the answer of declining their relationship?... She kept on reading. " I'm sorry that you're so beautiful. I'm sorry that you've got so many boy admirers, and I'm sorry that I'm not good enough for you... " This email sealed their relationship and the boy definitely proved his ability not only in Physics or Chemistry, but also in expressing the feeling of love. Yes, the only thing that has ever matterd to them all these years.
Surely lots more had happened later on account of their subtle love which they had accomplished by eye contacting in the hall, or chocolate gifts with secret code words, by the whole time she was still wearing that veil so that her face had never been seen by her boy. She kept the secret well. Two days before their marriage, and here's the interlude, they went to different universities and had a long distance relationship for three years and survived. Back to the day that the boy finally got the chance to see the face and figure of the girl. He's astonished to find such a beauty. He was speechless, and by thinking of the rest of his life that this pure beauty will only be left for him, just for him, he couldn't help laughing out loud, staring at his bride. He was the happinest husband of the world.
Now he refuses to have babies with her even though she told him she's ready to be a mum. He replied that he doesn't want to share her love with someone else, someone who's cuter and less agressive, and who needs her care and attention almost all the time, I wonder how selfishness has ever manifested in a better way.
So far so good, their love story indeed goes along like a fairy tale and maybe only in those religous countries can love be worked out in such an innocent and pure way. It reminds me of one of our latest blockbusters directed by Zhang Yimou named the Hawthorn love, which has been boasted the purest love of all. Comparison makes people shameful about their works.
I am not stating that the movie's not a good one, yet I simply think that it doesn't deserve these busswords. Purest lies! Living in a materialistic world like the nowadays China, one won't even be able to have that pair of pure eyes to appreicate the love in its purest form. Let alone to perform an art work. I might have generalised and exaggerated, but the truth is truth. Adolescent boys and girls have been living another life compared to what I had back in the late 90s.
Real life is always better than what we read from novels, and it's because we have utmost experinces of it. Being so close to such a story trembles me, and I feel the urge to dish it out otherwise I am afraid that I will never encounter it again. Wait, reflecting upon my own love story, ah, doesn't that take ten times more words to be told?
Rambling is just rambling, and will never be something significant from its pile of ordinariness, but I'll leave the judgement to you, my ultimate readers, friends on this website, with perhaps a thousand possible interpretations to grasp from what I've chattered today.
Peace, and good night.
Melissa, closing up her favourite day and getting ready to dream of her haihai.