Nan-nan's name has haunted my mind for some time. It almost makes me feel trouble. I decide to write her story to give the trouble an end, or at least to make me think less about it. Nan-nan was a girl who was near at my age. We ever lived in the same village, despite that I am living a little far from it and she lived there till she stopped her life there. What Nan-nan impressed most was her warm smile on her dark and emaciated face, from which I could always read out kindness. Another one about her that impressed me deeply was her eyes, one of which was tilted. Anout that, I learned by chance from the old in the village that Nan-nan got it hurt because she mistook a bottle of kerosene as water and drank it when she was a baby girl. Is that true? I myself dare not say yes or no. Story goes just like that. Every time glaring at her eyes, I used to be puzzled. I could not sure whether she was looking at me or not. I judged it only by the words she utterd. She would greet me warmly like this: Hi, you are back, eh? and followed with another qustion without a pause: When did you get back, then? I would answered like this: Oh, yesterday. Just yesterday. And how are you? We had the similar conversations several times as I was at my home town and we happened to meet each other somewhere I forgot at what time Nan-nan got married, the fact is that she did get married, and her husband is her sister- in -law's elder brother. It is said Nan-nan's family was among the poorest ones in the village, therefor, no one would choose Nan-nan's eld bother as their daughter's husband. Someone soon offered the idea that there was another family that was very poor too, and that family has a girl and a boy. Why do not the two families' children marry to each other? And things went as it desired. Not long after their marriage, the couples had their children.
Half year ago, I went to visit my mother. As we chatted, mother spoke of Nan-nan and sighed: She died. What a poor girl! "What?" I was astonished. Mother told me what it was. Nan-nan's mother died of some disease and Nan-nan was too sad to bear it. She was heard to murmur to herself all day long: I desperately miss my mother. I miss her indeed. I want to see my mother." People in the cillage ignored that. They seldom realized that she was suffering from psychological illness. One day , no more than a week after Nan-nan's mother's death, while her husband went to work on their field, Nna-nan drank a bottle of poison prepared for her crops. As her husband returned, Nan-nan's life had diappeared in the world, leaving two of her young children motherless.