Alas, I haven`t written sth here for 2 months almost already, as is known to all, it`s very easy to fake up an excuse to avoid doing sth when you are in lazy period. Excuse always can only be an excuse, I`m not going to explain it more for me, I must admit that I am very sluggardly... By contrast with some diligent bloggers here, I always feel deeply compunctious... Some of them even can write two or three diaries one day, sometimes, I wonder how can they have such a consistent passion for learning English... In this term, for some other thing, such as thesis proposal、 graduation design and kind of things like these about graduation, I rare to have a little impulsiveness to write sth in English. I always feel a little tired to concentrate my energy to do something well. I really have a strong desire to do sth meaningful when I sit in front of my PC, but unfortunately, I failed... How I wish I can have a aspirant and laborious guy like my old friend--Jimmy surround with me, thus, I might not have wasted so many of my previous time in the past 60 days. But, it`s just my wishful thinking. I have to say it`s very difficuly to find one around me in my college who have the same purpose with me to learn sth or pay more attention or time in sth till master it well. Everyday,everyday, as long as I stay in my dormitory, I always can hear some sounds like “fire in the hold” or “double kill” kind of voice or some filmic sound when I take down my headset from my ear. Formerly, I could get up early and refused to watch any kind of movie or Tv series, but, recently, I always get up at 10am or after 10 and have watched many meaningless movies and even some childish or naive/puerile South Korean Tv series, Jesus, what am I doing? Why I have lost my motivation and my end. Why I choose to clik here and there without any purpose on the Internat all the day rather than/instead of learning sth useful. Alas, I really need one to inspire me though I know that the best inspirator is myself. I`m not young any more, I`m 20-somthings already. I should be responsible for myself and my future. Why I feel more and more vaguely about my wishful future but I still have no power and decision to change my depraved situation.Illion, it`s high time for you to take a big change and to make a huge progress in sth useful. you can`t live like the past 60 days any more. You have no time to trifle away any more, no qualification to live comfortable in your last term....
I`m sorry for writing so many neagtive verbiage in my diary, I wish your mood and mindset wouldn`t be influenced by my words.