There is nothing to tell about today. Just one test after another, and tons of paper to sign. I literally get my whole body, my brain, my chest, my kidney, my stomach… from head to toe, scanned and ultrasonic tested. The doctor needs 100 percent sure that my cancer hasn’t spread to other organs.

While the other patients are torn between decisions like breast-sparing or not, my only problem stripped down to be only one: operational or inoperational---which means I really don’t have many choices, and I have to leave everything to the fate.

So if I am lucky, I can have my entire breasts (both sides) removed (new word: mastectomy) next Monday. And there would be a group discussion over my case before the surgery. I am really flattered.

PS, I can manage time here for reading, writing, and listening, except one thing: speaking. It’s too embarrassing even for me. So, I have to quit EMF learning and daily practice. Hope I could catch it up after the surgery.