Recently, a friend of mine told me:" You look...somewhat gloomy, not like before, I don't know."
I was suddenly shocked by what she said.
I have made a deep self-reflection last night and finally found why I had given that impression to my friend.
That's very likely because of him. Like a lot of young men struggling in the cities, he comes from a poor family and is now striving for a living in this second-tier city. We got acquainted just from a friend's friend. At first, I thought a boy from a poor family must be stronger and more diligent than those urban ones. Gradually, I found that he was indeed diligent, but he was not that confident, or to say, he was easy to get depressed and always tended to proved that he was right. We had quarrels when we were together, but it was me who always first said "sorry".
He is now working in a IT company and his main job is provide technical support for the customers. He always had a low spirit and told me that he was tired or would like to have a deep sleep. I didn't think too much and believed that he just needed a rest and he would cheer up very soon. But, we have known for about half a year while looking back he didn't have much fun in his life, instead, he had a lot of blues. I also found that he had little interests and hobbies.
I used to try to encourage him to be optimistic and say "life is not that tough, don't exert much pressure on yourself, relax and live simply". While he always said:"It's not that easy, you don't understand me." I don't know how to pursvade him, but I just way to say:" If you smile at life, life will also smile to you!.
I should not let him influence me, insdead, I should be as optimistic as before and appeal him with my positive emotions. Yes, that's it.