my childhood

When I was a little girl, my parents used to visit our relatives at night.

I was so nervous walking at dark because I scared of ghosts come out to catch me.

I would neither walk in front nor at the back, I had to walk between two of them, though I felt there were ghosts everywhere.

But this has never happened to me.

quit a job in a state-run company 

It took me 10 years to make a decision quit a job in a state-run company.

At that time, I was under tremendous pressure: I could never ever get a job; I would not be entitled to an age pension; I would lose health secure automatically.

One colleague gave me a kind suggestion: “No, you can’t quit the job, if you do, absolutely you will have no future.”

It seemed to me the end of the world if I quit the job.

But the fact is, if I stay in that company, I will be retired very soon, I can’t tell there’s meaning for life—1 year like 10 years, nothing really excites me.

So I am glad I made a wise decision which changed my life dramatically.

English learning

When I started learning English, I was worried that I could never pass exams and complete a diploma as my basis English was terrible.

Then I doubted a student visa could be granted to a married woman in my 30s.

In the end, I dared not think about it, I told myself: I had to study really hard because I had no choice, that’s the only thing I could do.

to be an overseas student

After 10 years my dream came true, the happiest moment ever.

I remembered one classmate told you: “You look so energetic.” 

Probably I was having a life I desired– lived for the moment with enthusiasm.

Student life

After arrived Australia, I worried about not finding a casual job due to my poor English speaking and listening skill and I had no idea how to use a cash register.

As a result, I was refused to be a casual waitress at a Chinese cafe.

All those negative thoughts were not helpful, the only thing I could do: keep looking, don’t settle.

After struggling for a while, I found a part time cleaning job at Latrobe Uni so that I could pay for living expense with the money I earned.

Applying for PR

Again, I was most concerned about whether I could pass IELTS and complete a degree in the Uni on time.

The pressure drove me mental. I couldn’t afford to fail as I wouldn’t have enough points to apply for PR if I was 2 more years older. 

Therefore, I checked immigration policy all the time.

I was not relaxed at all for study, under that circumstances, I got a problem in sleeping.

I was like a broken machine, no matter how hard I have tried, and I couldn't fall asleep until 4 am.

All the worries and concerns only made me sick and anxious; they didn’t help me at all.

An accounting job in Australia

After graduation, I was afraid I couldn’t find an accounting job in my late 30s.

I concerned about a job from the first semester to the last term, I did not know the phrase: dream big, and then I gave up lots of job opportunities.

However, I found one in a local company where I worked for more than 6 years.

So age is not a problem, it is mind setup, only if you believe you can, and try very hard, then you can make it.

Passion in writing

After everything has been settled, I found I have passion in writing.

I was eager to set up a Wechat subscription, but there was one negative thought on my mind: probably there’s no one would like to follow me, how embarrassing!!!

Then I’ve got encouragement from the books I’ve read: no worries, no matter what happens to you, just do what you love as long as it makes you happy and brings value to the society.

Since I opened up Englishpassion, there is an increasing number of people have joined me.

So far, there are 206 followers, who come from all parts of China as well as native English speakers mainly from Melbourne.

However, the main benefits I’ve got from writing is increasing of self-confidence and being a positive happy person.