just now i reviewed what i'd written in miniblog, how bad, some lessons i'v forgotten. like be more industrious and carefull. and make lesser mistake, speak some out more, say sth...but look at me right now: sitting at the front of computer, searching internet like Taobao, Sina, Microblog, Dio.....i don't know why i don't have the equal passion and mood to work. even now i have some tired feeling and boring in my job. sometimes i wanna escape.escape the mistake i resulted, avoid the responsibility. i just fear. i don't know why. maybe the pressure from myself. u know what, i'v stayed into this company for nearly 3years. some lowest mistake which could happen in newcomers i took. my boss endures me in most of this period. he always encourage me and teach me what i should do , then make perfect. i don't know either. the moment i was pushed to make up to work much more carefull. but after several days, the same mistake i took again. 'Dam it' i wanna say. don't i be careful enough? or i should go home to be full-time mother. i really don't like this atmosphere......