I don’t know how to describe the mood of mine these days. In my family, we all have not been  in a good mood since dad was in a poor health. Recently, he has felt uncomfortable. At night, he can’t sleep well. Sometimes he lies on the bed for a while then gets up to sit on the chair or lay on the sofa. Even though he hardly ever talks to me how he feels, I can feel the pain and sorrow in his body and mind. I have been examining his temperature for several days on end, finding he has suffered from a little fever. Besides, he feels uncomfortable in his stomach and it a kind hurts.
 
 During the lunch of yesterday, he tried putting the food into his mouth, even though he had no appetite in the slightest. Seeing the scene, what I could do was to hold back my tears and kept on eating because I was terrified of being seen by dad. At the same time, mom got up and came to her bedroom. I knew she couldn’t stand that and just came to another room to make herself calm and dry her tears, then returned to the table, eating with us. In the end, dad had a half of the rice. The day was exactly mom’s birthday. As daughter, I didn’t know how to say “happy birthday” to mom. Sometimes, I often hate myself for i hardly ever know how to console mom and make her feel better on both the physical and mental levels.
 
This morning dad was sent to the hospital and just now I made a phone call to dad and knew his body will be examined tomorrow. Only then can the doctor know how to help dad and make her feel more comfortable. During these days, they didn’t sleep well. Hope they can sleep tight tonight. In order to make myself go to bed, I must figure out the ways to close my eyes and sleep even though I don’t feel sleepy at all.