I feel sorry that I have forgotten this blog for near 2 years, but today it just poped into my mind and I immediately log in, even though I failed many times and reset it. I'm so happy now. I don't know how many friends left I have, but I miss you all.

 

             I graduated from university in July this year. Now I work in a foreign trade corporation which involve in domestic and abroad trading market. I chose my major four years ago with the dream that I want to do business with foreigners, speaking fluent English, however, now I'm doing what I wanted before, I find out that it is not as good as I imagined. I gradually realize that this is not what I want. I'm not happy. I'm a freshmen in this field, so certainly I have many things to learn, but I find out that the things I can learn by myself is so limited. There are no textbooks to teach me, no detailed information on the internet when I have questions. I have worked here for more than two weeks while I don't think that I have significant improvement. I still have many questions that my colleague answered vaguely, Internet replies in a mess. I don't know what to do and lost my guidance. Everyday I just sit here looking at my alibaba ,waiting for enquiry. I've sent many emails but recieved none. I know there is a long long way to go before success, but it's really what I imagined that I could talk to foreigners, I would get to know many foreign friends, doing business with them, negotiate with them and other many things I could do with foreigners face to face. In addition, earing much money is not impossible for one who is not experienced enough.

                I want to quit this job, and accept another offer from a international education institution. Does everything have to be so hard to choose??? That job has better salary more importantly I can get my knowledge full used. I like the feeling that I have to learn. But this job is more tiring. I don't have regular weekend, legal holidays, and I have to bear more pressure which comes from not only colleagues, but also scores of students.

 

               What should I supposed to do? Please help me. I'm entangled and confused.