Don’t let yourself remain indoors for too long, or you will get indulged in such kind of life. I used to be a self-reclusive person who had little contact with the persons around me, which, to a great extent, attributed to my low self-esteem. As I came from the rural village, too introverted, not good-looking and had nothing special, therefore, at that time, what I could do was to study hard to get ahead of others in my academic transcript.

I ran into the self-study room early in the morning and returned to the dormitory late at night. Even if I stayed in the dormitory when there were no classes, I seldom participated in the conversation of my dorm-mates. It seemed that I showed little interest in their topics, which were mainly about the love affairs happening on the campus, just gossips. One of the reasons I didn’t join their discussion was because I hate talking of people behind their backs, what’s more, I believed that those meaningless discussions were only a waste of time. My best friends were books, only from which could I found the sense of satisfaction. When I felt bored I would walk around the campus under the dim streetlights, especially on those summer evenings with a fair breeze. The leaves trembled in the breeze, which was really a fantastic atmosphere for me to meditate silently.

I miss those lonely but fulfilling and unforgettable times. However, everything has two sides. I also lost a lot of things. For lacking of communication with others, I suffered from troubles when stepping into the society after graduation. I was at a loss and bewildered with a low spirit for a long time, but I knew that I should and must come out of from the “shadows”, because only I could rescue myself. Then, I began trying to open doors to the outside. Though I was free and alone, I still have several intimate friends because of my sincerity and kindness. Though those friends, I was trying to get acquainted with other persons specialized in all walks of life. What’s more, I became willing to communicate with those colleagues beside me, which changed my life a lot.