I want to speak Chinese everyday, I want to speak Chinese all the time!  Any day that I don't spend speaking mostly Chinese is dumb and boring!  English does not excite me!  I want Chinese all the time, every day, forever and ever!  I need people to speak Chinese to!  (Why am I too shy to approach any of the Chinese-speaking people I occasionally encounter around here?) I miss learning constantly.  I miss stretching my brain daily by speaking more and more and better and better each day, and seeking out new vocab, and learning and stretching and having so much fun.  I miss Chinese.  I want to speak it every single day.