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Maybe I Went Too Far
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Yesterday evening i sent a charming woman i admire so much two text messages, very emotional and full of passionate feelings as every normal head can see out. To be frank, i dared not send her those messages at first for i was afraid she might get angry with those messages, and as a result maybe she would choose to turn a cold shoulder to me from then on. After all, i don't want to lose her as a friend. But eventually i failed to resist that strong desire going through my inner heart to let her know what's hidden in my heart. So i pressed the SEND button. She responded to my first message, in the usual way she used to deal with my teasing and emotional words. Often her respone contains two chinese language characters hehe(呵呵)，which ,she ever explained to me, she is using to cushion my teasing and too sensitive words. Hehe(呵呵) in her eyes are two magical characters that can be used neither to hurt nor to mislead me. Maybe she is right because i didn't get any hurt, and by saying these two characters she showed herself as a relatively open woman not like most of her collegues who are extremely conservative; at least, they seemingly look this way.
This afternoon, I asked her what she thought of my messages sent yesterday evening. She said she felt I went too far. I know, of course, i am going too far on the way to our relationship. In my eyes she is not an ordinary friend of mine; maybe i view her as a very close one. But maybe I am doing a wrong thing. She is woman, decent and traditional and self-conscious; she knows who she is and can tell right from wrong; she is so helpful, and especially to me. I can find no reason to destroy my great image in her heart. In fact, evil thoughts are harboured in every man's heart. I only revealed those evil thoughts to her , and so openly.
I went too far. But it is those powerful dark desires hidden in my innermost heart that made me go that far. Maybe i'll go farther if those dark thoughts are not bridled.
Post comment Comment (3 replies)
- Reply sunnyv
- May be you are too bold and direct. Personally, I won't dare to approach a girl like that because it can cause embarrassment or rejection with irreversible damage.
However, nobody knows whether she has an intimate interest in you, so you are not that wrong to give it a try. Perhaps, it would have been better if you use some indirect ways to establish the relationship and then go on from there.
Don't describe romantic desires as dark or evil thoughts because it is quite a natural thing.
- Reply leexiu2006
- thanks sunnyv for your great advice. maybe i am too bold hehe. and i 'll no longer call romantic desires as dark or evil.
- Reply sedgehead
- English: remember the little things: See my standard note NUMBER 8 at http://www.sedgehead.com/index.php/learn-english/51-suggestions-for-chinese-writers-of-english-and-other-non-native-english-speakers for more information on this correction. I use these standard notes to keep me from writing the same message over and over and over and over and over and over and over.
As for ideas and thoughts, well, relationships can be wonderful things. But it is also easy to get someone to feel too strongly about you, when you don't intend to respond to a strong reaction. I'd just say, be very careful to not break any hearts! pH
