This evening i invited her to dine out in a small restaurant called Hao Lin Ge. i arrived there first and ordered three dishes and a soup, too many for us two in fact, because she is on a diet and seldom eat dinner in the evening. Anyway, she came as she promised though i told her again and again when chatting online that i would hug and kiss her. she is courageous and has belief in herself; she knows i would not go against her will. it turned out that her honesty and openess conquered me rather than that i conquered her.

The moment she entered Room 228 of the this small restaurant, she said laughingly: i feel this is more like Hong Men Banquet ( a history story that happened more than 2000 years ago, in which the hero set a trick meant to murder his powerful and potential rival during the banquet but failed). i know maybe she said this intentionally to drop me a hint that i can not do something with her that will go too far.

we two drank three bottles of beer; in fact i drank the most part, but i can see the beer work inside her and her face turned red. we were chatting while drinking. we chatted so much ranging from family affairs to our career, to our colleagues, to our teaching job and to our own children. we both enjoyed the chatting so much that we didn't leave until 10:20 pm, which is a very late time because we two are a man and a woman and were sitting alone face to face with the door closed, and we could have done everything in such a quiet and safe environment.

Deep in my hear i could feel a strong impulse to hug and kiss her. but seeing her honest smiles and hearing her free chatting, that impulse would be thwarted and no longer seem so strong. but i wouldn't like to give up. so at the last moment before we leave i offered to give her a hug and spread both of my arms, but i was refused and i gave it up because i respect her and didn't want to annoy her

She texted me when she arrived home, telling me she believes friendship between a man and a woman does exist, which goes against my belief. in my eyes, a man and a woman can become friends because there exists something between them that can draw them together.

Anyway i want more of her. I want more than friendship of her. I want her to treat me as a very special one rather than just a common friend. God know what is going through her mind.