This afternoon she told me on QQ that maybe she was not able to get online this evening because she was accused by her husband of sitting in front of the computer all the time recently. She didn't act this way before, so she wants a change this evening so as not to cause husband's suspicion. though nothing happened between us and we remain good friends, i think it better to keep our close relations between us two only. i don't want to make our relations public and bring her some trouble. i know people are always there who like to do nothing more than spread rumors, which can easily destroy someone and especially a nice woman who have no idea about how to protect herself.

As for me, i refuse to believe in a pure friendship between a woman and a man. in my eyes, if opposite sex maintains a close tie, it means they attract each other and take interest in each other. i confess i take great interest in her and i keep telling her that i love her; i also promised her that i won't destroy her whenever it is or whatev er i am doing with her. To love somebody means you must be responsible for her and protect her from being hurt or harmed.

i tried many times to see if she also has some affection towards me by continuously asking her if she miss me. her answer was always the same---hehehe, which means she refuse a direct answer.  This afternoon she texted me : concerning affairs between a man and a woman, words will seem pale if spoken out so directly; and the best way to express is to do something meaningful rather than promise someone the moon. she let me guess what her texts means. here i want to tell her that i got the answer. i know she also loves me but she wouldn't like to be too direct because she is a nice woman, traditional and descent.

i won't bring her trouble. i promise.