I offended her last night when I said what in her eyes are some extremely rude words. She could no longer stand those words and shut down her video immediately. Then I realized something serious had happened. She is too nice and pure a lady to bear such an insult brought about by those vulgar and bad words. One of the main reasons why she reacted so strongly, I suppose, is that she believes she is to be respected by me because in her heart I am a man weighing heavily. Anyhow, she could have imagined such bad words should have come from the mouth of a man whom she laid thorough trust in, and whom she is partly emotionally dependent on.

I know I broke her heart last night; I am to blame. I would rather she criticized and cursed me but she didn’t. Instead, she chose to swallow all her bitter tears. What a nice lady!

After this incident, it occurred to me that she is just like a beautiful jade, shining, pure and transparent without even one spot. Her heart is clear as a creek water, so clear that each pebble or even each grain of sand on the creek bottom can be clearly seen. Shouldn’t such a nice woman deserve your love, affection and devotion?