It seems popular among college students to have a relationship with someone even if most of them know there hardly are lovers that eventually can enter into wedding.Of course confession of love is also seen often.
Many guys or girls who make a confessin to someone are not meant to get a yes answer. Just like a girl friend said that she would not know how to do it if she got a yes answer and she do it just in order to thoroughly put down this tangled feeling. Also,some persons will be upset for somedays afer a refused answer. These no answers are so diverse.Seeing you as my brother or little sister is the commonest excuse.
Looking back to my life in college, not making a confession made me regetful. One day my friend set me up with a guy. I had to admit that hewas a tall and strong guy but i had no instant connection with him. During the process of chitchat, his humor left a particular impression on me.After this so-called blind date,he often chatted with me on qq and all his behavior made me think that he had a feeling for me.After communicating with him about two weeks,we went out to see a movie. He was a good talker but we seemed had nothing in common.This date made me feel awful.All i knew about him that he was an excellent guy from a teacher family, being a student body president, not playing any computer game After this date, he suddenly became silent on qq and i also did't chat with him any more.I was a girl with a proud heart and in other person's eyes i was also excellent. However, i am a not patient girl and could not put up with his attitude on me.How could him give a failure like this? I felt a great weight of depression insideme.
The thought of this feeling made me mad.Eventually, i called him and made a confession to him.I told him that i liked him and hoped a clear answer whether it was yes or no.He said he needed some time to think it over. It was about at midnight that he send the message asking me why i liked him.It was more like that I had some curiosity about him and knowing he and i were not suitable from the inside.The reason i gave him was that my never making confession in college made me regetful.Just i anticipated, i got refused.He said he had been used to enjoying solitude.At that moment, i felt nothing and even had a good sleepling after i messaged him that i known it and needed to sleep without seeing his excuse any more.He also said that life was magic, encountering so many people but only one pesrson companying us till we die.I have no memory of his face but i do remember this word. Not only was he an excellent guy but also a good one.But i do not deserve him in his eyes.
I thought all about this had already gone like it never happened.But,i am wrong.every time i thouht abou this,i felt sorrow and always want to know the reason even i know there is no need.It seems like i can't accept the failure from him rather than he likes me or not. Sometimes i know that i suspect myself without having enough faith in me so that i can't stay with his rejection,especially from a good guy.