I don't want to love someone finally.

We've known each other since we were 18 or 19.At that time,I didn't know I would like him some day.

I liked his positive and optimistic personality. His body always was full of sunshine.

I never knew more about myself correctly, so I was a very  inferiority person before. I thought no one could like me.

Till graduation dinner, he drank more wine that stomach bleeding, later we sent him to the hospital.

I can remember it was very later and I took care of him all the night in the hospital.

After graduating from the college, we lost contact for many years.

Last June 8th I took my little boy to the Xichong Beach in Shenzhen and uploaded some pics in my QQzone.

Then he noted to me and asked me to his house for dinner.I was very hesitant for it that time.

After my working in Shenzhen city, I went to see him.He was same as before but without sunshine.

I almost couldn't help to embrassing him, but I didn't. We never embrass together.

I found I love him one day. But I can't do this because we all have the other half in our life.

So I sent an E-mail to him last month and changed all his remark name as "someone" instead.

I have all my tears into my eyes forever and I lost him forever this time.

He has emptied my heart this time.

I will leave Shenzhen city next month.

I will be better.