I don't know why, I am afraid of opening the friends circle, I am afraid to receive the information which involve flaunt. There are so many talented classmates around me. They are successful in competition, study, organization, internship and so forth. Their "good news" scatter in the friends circle. I admit that the jealous feeling must play a role. I just can't face these information and feel frustrated. I often ask myself that am I weaker than others or I care about others too much. I think the answer is the latter.

    Actually, I am not the most terrible person among them. I do have my pursue and little success. The key point is that I always treat other people's success as mine. It is definitely wrong. Everyone should know his/her own goal and the level of success. We only compare with ourselves. It is the point, but I always walk on the wrong way. The outside information can influence me easily. They control my mood, choice and working way. How terrible situation I am. I have to get rid of it as soon as possible. My cousin had mentioned me that my EQ is not enough. I am weak in mastering my emotion. Nevertheless, I realize these questions finally. I will be my myself like the saying goes:"take my own way and do not care what will they say."