before I was trying to write down some article, but  I usually found that there was nothing to say. or nothing specially to deseave to say. Every time I tried , I found that I could not express my thought well, probably lack of vocabulary. As time went by, I become more hesitate to write down something. I quite surprise that there are a lot of guys here , they can keep on updated theire article almost every day. how come they have such passion and endless words to depict. The work is down and tired, I uaually lost in the daily routine without time to think about and re-organize our work and life. Spending time for reading or writing , that is a kind of luxury wishes also. Day to day, I become numb for some extent. lack of energy and motiation for doing the new thing. I find that I am more hesitate to change the present situation now. I am afraid of this kind of working and living ways. I am afraid that I lose the confidence to start a new job and live a new life also. There are so much wondering and uncertain in my life. How to figure out ?