Every man has to make tough choices in many difficult times. No one can tell you whether your choice is right or wrong. What worse is nobody can be responsible for your desicion, even your parents, your best friend, they only can give you advice depanding on their experiences. The final choice still needed to be made by yourself. After that, you need to persist in your decision without regreting and hesitation.
Since I approach the final of my college time, I have been tolerated by the question that where should I go, keeping studying my major subject or finding a job in a company. It seems still have a long time for me to choose, but this choice means a lot. It just like a lamb in the dark. Only I get the direction can I work harder in it. Otherwise I would be lazy and addicted to boring games, TV shows etc. Besides, I won't want to be fulfilled by endless useless exams and practices.
However I either cant sure I can pass the text to be a master or get a work in a good company. For example, I prefer to work in foreigh company but I also realize the strict limits. Based on this situation, I cannot choose easily. From my perspective, one can only live once, not like game you can load/save. So I want to live my life more meaningfully. As a result, I become more and more hesitant and fear failure.
A few days ago, I chatted with my friend and asked for suggestions. She said"If you cant figue out the benifits then let your feeling determine this. Just only considering your interest ." Honestly, I was a little shocked at that momment. It has been a long time that I have been influenced by the general living ways. Almost everyone around me has the same dream like a good job, a nice wife and one or two babies. However, in our earlier age, we have various dreams, becoming scientist, doctor, teacher etc. Absolutely not like today. Thanks for her advice, reminding my innitial mind. In the near future, you need to work for 8 hours every day, If you dont love your job, how terrible it will be.
Maybe God prefer to play crap game, you cant predict your future and you dont need to. The most interesting thing is just the uncertainty of life. You just need to enjoy you life entirely and keep hope.