I am back to writing after a long long time. And I am sure that I am not a good writer now.
The facts are above, but I am very proud to say that I must have been a good writer in my junior times with Tracy my English teacher who helped me start my writing. But now I can only write a few sentences after a long thought. It is indeed a shame to say that!
In the first year of my junior school, I was assigned to a class where Tracy were as an English teacher. In a small and regular show before class, it was my turn to give a speech or recite the part of the passage we were learning at that time. I thought I was not critical or well-prepared enough for a speech. So I decided to choose the latter: a recitation. And I was very lucky that day to come across a superior inspection into our class. I was indeed very nervous, considering I was a very shy girl at that time, with so many people sitting down and listening at the back of me. My voice was trembling. And OMG OMG OMG repeated again and again in my mind. And I lost my word, nervousness shaking over my head and silence making the classroom dead. Tracy whispered to me when she came by me: Take it easy! She looked into my eyes, seemingly saying I believed in you. Finally luckily, I worked out the recitation with little errors and Tracy's words was effective! From that moment on, I believed Tracy was listening and understanding me because she was so considerable at that time. People tended to feel safe when someone did something to help them feel at ease in a difficult time. And they began to say something deeper to that person. And I was too writing my feelings and my experiences in my diaries which she asked us to keep.
I wrote an experience where I was helped out by my friends while I had a quarrel with them before. I wrote one cleaning balcony with my father who wanted to make me aware of slippery floor but tumble down by himself. I wrote my feelings on my studies with a great help of Tracy. And I wrote my preparation for my brother's birthday but I fainted down because I cut my finger......
All those pieces could always get a good remark from Tracy, and she would give a comment how to develop a better passage and how to explain better. But just a regret that I was born into a time where argumentation is much more important than narrative. All those moving pieces are gone and I could not find that notebook where my best memories were noted. About love, about friendship, about family, about thoughts. It is indeed a pity that I can not review the feelings that I held at that pure time. And with time going on, I went for my senior school and fought for my ideal university. That habit was thrown away badly. I began to notice that I just got through the days which are so stressed with little joy. And when I finally survived the stressful senior lives, I have completely forgotten how to write something correctly to note my lives and how to think out of lives and how to get inspirations from lives. I have lost those abilities completely.
Until recently, I bumped into Kriss, who told me that I should go on writing because I could express my unique views any time I had one. If not, my ideas will be buried completely even before they can be read by others. And when I clicked this link, seeing so many passages moving in front of my eyes, my inspiration came and I decided to go on with writing. It will make me think more if I do so. A good way to enjoy life.