This is the first english blog written by me, and i think it is a appropriate way to

record my feeling of this period. Half a year has gone since i came here, and i

really have burden a lot which is inappropriate to tell others even though friends and family members,

but to suffer silently. Friends envy my seem decent work, however nobody knows

what i have experienced. I do not want to be defeated, i do not want to be a loser,

and i do not want to give up my dream. A voice risen from my inner heart tells me that

"life is your own, the past has gone and is meaningless for you, the urgent thing to do is

that cherishing every minute and work hard to be better than yesterday, when you turn back you will

be moved by what you have done now".