I am highly-educated, know about telecom fraud cased though not a lot, and understand the meaning of Stockholm syndrome. The truth is, you are young and alone at abroad, you should face problems yourself instead of going to parents or friends at once. That why I heard all the cheaters words fully-minded and then was caught by the thinking cage they gave to me.

The second reason is that, I am not sure that If I am innocent i can completely prove myself in the present police system. This is the biggest problem.

There is a third reason, the woman who speak to me most during the whole two days, the way she gave her words is very identical as my former supervisor in China( reader can go back to my former blogs in 2021 for the whole story). To say the truth, I dislike my former supervisor( let call her Dr.Z) who was always take herself as "boss" and speak like boss, and scolded me severval times on the way I speak and treat people, as well as the way I response to email messages or how to act when I do something wrong at work. That is exactly the seem. They look the same age, high status, rigorous, work hard but always ask other to work harder. The most important, they both take themselves as people in high class and the young should respect them all the time. Dr.Z should be called "Teacher Z" all the time, and that cheater should be called chief procurator without actual name. Yeah, in my mind, the police system should not work like this but I have no experience. 

I also take this way of communication at a crime suspect is not right. But the way they gave out those information and ask me to follow is same as what my supervisor done before. Actually, it is Dr.Z who let me to make up my mind to apply for foreign study, because I don't want to work for her any longer. My supervisor has knowledge to some content, but the way she performance facing people is like the cheaters imagination of high class workers. Who is the most ironic? Is it me?

I don't think this is my fault. If I take being cheated is my own fault that means I am caught by Stockholm syndrome. I have no deposit anymore but I still have a future. I should go back home this summer to work with Dr.Z two more years as planed before( the foreign year is something else). The actual thing is, I am think to apply for changing a supervisor at home with the reason that I am cheated by someone indentical and have a mental problem( just because I hate her). But I don't think I have this courage to change. 

The only thing I get from this affair is that: Do not believe anyone who scold you rigorous on your fault. Only you know what you are wrong, and if you are wrong no one else have the privilige to scold on you through words. The failed result you get is already enough, no one can make you feel guilty anymore. If anyone try to get you feel that guilty, they are ciminals. 

Being calm and straight, and a truth speaker for your self. And do not feel like the way you speak or your personality is a problem, that is the way you are. 

I really need this passage to enable myself a time to being calm. It may need a month or more to cure me about the past two days.