why you seem to so relaxed? the lazy mind will get up to the station , so fear , so strong , too fast ... gene' s power is always strong . on the other hand , you should think why you are often feel tried about your job? 2 years ago , I guess that won't be happened in your mind , but follow the time pass , everything changes ...

  I have to think , that time passed what it means ?  people's hearts is so easy to change? this is a very part-time mind , because people loved child's emotion(own) never change.to be simple example:

to their-self easy to change 

to their-child difficult to change

child (expect , baby)

self (fact ) 

I got the answer , the big problem which stop us is the level time , see your child as the future , see yourself just the now , so , your eye is so low and the action is so lazy . another one question , why you become more and more 'now '?  bad suffer , fail , fear make your light less and less , you just want to over come it , because you just want to have good emotion and feel