Everyone trying to show their best side to others and block out the weakness.As resolute men they may never putpour their sorrow.So was I.When my eyes were swollen up with tears I must lifted my head to the sky to prevent it running down my cheeks.When I heart was in great pain I never tell anyone my grief.But from now on I won't be like that.I will be myself.I have never had any regrets in your life which only lasts for a few decades. Laugh or cry as I like.
  I'm really very dismayed these days.I have been in low spirits because everything seems to be on its wrong side.  I tried to forget those unpleasant things. I feel a species of uneasiness.Coz I gave up my job which as a tutor and try to hunt another part-time job but I faild.I tried to seek for a job through the internet . But the result is unsatisfactory. Almost every recruitment information is deceptive.Majority are intervening agency,they said there's no intermediary charges or they are direct recruitment by the company if you consult over phone but when you truly be there they will ask you for money by various name.That make my blood boil.Only those who have no sense of shame can do such shameful things.Now I want to cry out:"screw you!!you motherfucking impostor!!fuck off!!!"
  More perplexing is that the hard disc of my computer in the previous period.It doesn't work at that time but there's some files of great significance.So I took it down to ZhoneGuancun and paid ￥100 to export date to a new hard HD which I bought on-spot there.
Because I only take the HD there so they couldn't install the XP system without my own mainboard.But after I came back home and installed it to the mainboard the system still couldn't be installed then I think it just a minor issue.So I take it to a computer repair shop and told him the condition.What made me mad is that he formatted my HD without my permission.All the date may vanished forever.The files is really very important as there are some materials of my brother's company and also sth I wrote by heart which I will never get back that sense and perception.There also many photos I strolled about with my GF etc.I think I may sue him if he couldn't find that back.
I do not know how to describe the situation I am. I am at a loss completely. Some time I consoled myself by that Every tragedy makes heroes of common people.  Every one kind of wound, is that one kind is mature. I hope good luck will come to me soon and also knock at your door!!