I took a brave action today：being the first one to greet a colleague who has conflicts with me and starting a short conversation. Although she did not show much warmth nor interest as I did, I felt well.

It was her who persuaded me into learning Buddhism, who said I could treat her as friend and say whatever in my mind. About a week ago, I pointed out that she was a little stubborn sometimes, hoping she could realize this and do better as a Buddhism follower. Out of my expectation, she became so irritated that she won't speak to me till these days. From the bottom of my heart, I don't think this is my fault, though I do agree with my boyfriend that not everyone want to hear our true voice, especially when the voice is a negative one.

Over the past few days, she acted rather cold even when I reported work to her. This put me in a rather embrassing situation. I have said sorry the day we argued, while she still can't let the bygones be bygones? This morning, when I got off the bus, I caught a view of her back. It was likely that we got off from the same bus, but we had not noticed each other. She was just a couple of steps in front of me. For some moment, I wanted to play with my cellphone or watch videos on my MP5, prending that I did not see her. Suddenly, I realized maybe this is a chance blessed by god to let me break the deadlock. Why not grasp it? Then I caught up with her and started some casual talks. She just said "yes" or "no" as response. Then we fell into salience again. I didn't know whether it was because I walked faster or she slowed down her steps intentionally, in the end, we walked separately to the office.

Now I am not the one who is unhappy, because I realized that maybe a person who does not want to hear your true voice is not a friend for me after all. There is no need to let a non-friend disturb my inner peace and happiness. Secondly, although I was the one who started the conflict, I have paid for it---saying "I am sorry" and taking the initiative in breaking the ice. She totally has the rights to choose forgiveness or hatred forever, anyway unhappiness does not harbor on my side any more.

Proud of my courage. Please cheer for me if you share the feeling.