these days,i was busy with our tests,the winter holiday,which i expected for a long time is coming.however,when its step becomes nearer,i feel i can face it calmly,neither excited nor happy,just numb.why? on the condition that i have grown up?if so,i want to be a child forever.
i haven't went home for four monthes.am i missing parents?a little.am i missing sister and brother?a little more.several days ago,my father phoned me,he showed his miss to me.it occured to me that i haven't phoned home for a long time.at that time i felt very very sad,just because i was busy? i could sleep for ten hours a day,i could surf the internet veryday,why couldn't i share even 5 minutes with my parents?my parents,my beloved ones when i was a child?it wasn't today?no,still.i just bury this love deep in my heart.
last night it was chrismas eve,almost everyone celebrated it in their own way.i received many messages,just transmited them.i got several apples,i didn't know what to do,i hadn't bought any apples.why didn't i buy,i asked myself.why?why?why?no answer.i wanted to do nothing but shutdown my cellphone and sleep to morning.in fact,i whched films until it was late.
this afternoon,i went to the canteen,i got a bad service.i was very upset and angry and wanted to argue with the waitress,however i did nothing,because it is chrismas today and that was the gift i sent to her.
it is chrismas today.merry chrismas to the world.