though i admit that until now i have to make a compromise , which  doesn't mean i will stop fighting .

stop fighting can only lead to worse failure. 

what i have gained from recent months' experiments is that i cannot change every much except i change the surroundings of me. doing things by oneself cannot achieve total success, which is the basic character of human being. keep it in mind in future life!

from today i will start to pay attention to small things,idiographic(具体的) things and do them best. i think only by doing small and exact things best first, can i achieve a big success.sometimes thinking too much to have no attention at things at present is foolish.