What a night it is tonight…
    You’ve all fallen asleep,while I’m still looking up to the heaven in desperation, lying in bed.
     It’s the short message that I sent to my two closest friends on a deep night three years ago.
     From that time on,I never mentioned her name to anyone else.Even though the next day they called and asked me how I was,I just smiled and told them it was nothing.
      Right,I’ve forgot many things…
     By and by,it seems that I’ve got dead to all feelings.Caring for nothing,just live in my ways.
     Live alone,die alone…
     Zhuangzi once said,the most lamentable thing in this world is nothing but your dying heart.
     Is my heart dying?
     I don’t know,but I can feel it’s still beating in my chest.There’s still running blood in it.
     But many things have happened.No one can get back.I’ve got more and more different……from the past me.
     There are many things in this world  that we cannot control and change,but we can choose to forget.It might be one of  the most valuable gifts that were from God (smiling…)
      Luxun once said,to commemorate is to forget better.
      I think it’s quite right,that’s also why I decide to write the essay on such a lonely night.
      If the things cannot be going on my way,I might be floating a boat on the Eastern Sea.It’s from Confucius,and it’s also the dream that I’ve been yearning for.
      I know I’ve been waiting for a moment.A moment that I can be surfing through the waves and soaring up high in the sky.
       When it comes,the ones who have the ears will be able to hear,the ones who have the eyes will be able to see.
        It’s near…