I don't remember when and who have ever said like that: we always used to changing into someone we don't like little by little. Actually, it just is the portraiture which exists in my lives of late, too many fragments in the memory which i deem shouldn't have belonged to me are emerging in my mind unceasely, I even hate such a state like that. Losing yourself is extremely horrible, you just scare to face the one who live in your body you feel strange and dissatisfied. Too many friends around me remarked me to be a generous person, however, I really am facing them, but who knows who am I when I being alone. to be a realistic person seems too tough for me, in fact, I also don't realize what I want to do, how I want to be. Usually, I concern excessively about others' thought, also others' comment rather than the way belongs to myself.

It's too tough for me to catch up my emotion, no matter to someone or something, sometimes, I can't help loving somebody, but maybe instantly, the feeling about him or the memory about us just disappear unreasonably. while wo could say the feeling won't come bact in the next minute?!