Recently I feel my current situation is just like a waste of time, and as well as killing myself. I have no idea whenever and however I could break away from such bad feeling. I lose passion, confidence, power and direction, which is rather terrible; I daren't imagine like that. I wonder what's the matter with me on the earth. It's me? Maybe I am silly and useless in others' eyes. At times it's serious, so I couldn't help thinking. But on the other hand, I wonder whether they still let me stay here if I am useless.Maybe it's said that it needs something extra; I have no idea. I am idle so that I am useless or lack of ability to let them trust me, but I am innocent and believe myself; Such situation free than busy, I get in a loss. Unhappiness, tears, negative thought, etc all pour into my mind; Should I insist just like this, it's really a big mark in my mind. I treasure it and do it heart and soul, but something is out of my imagination and control. It's really tired and wore out. Trouble is a friend, and now silence and tear accompany with me.