After one terrible and noising night. I wake up at the dawn. Now it is 4 o’clock, I have lots of time before the first lesson. I soon find that for one person, if you lost something, perhaps you cannot get it again during your rest life, but you did not realize its importance when you have it. When the beautiful memory gone away from your mind, you began to pay attention to it. But we cannot change the time, some special experiences went passed your life and became the history. And I think because it is something we cannot repeat, it is important and valuable. Many college admission Department begin to urge me to hand in the TOEFL score paper, I have to improve myself and perfectly prepare the test as soon as possible. I soon get the heavy stress in my heart. At the top of this school, the roof, this time I do not intoxicate with the personal imagination. I began to listen the chapter and speak it loudly. Oh it is really the wonderful place for me to improve my speaking. No matter how loudly I speak, no one can hear my sound, they just hear the voice from wind, the wind far away from mountain. I just speak with the roaring wind, no one is in here, only myself. I soon get the passion, to speak as loudly as possible. Now the wind begin to roar wildly, and I tie up my coat and try to ignore the cold wind and concentrate what I do. The wind in the morning is quite cold and it continuously sweep me without the rest. Now I fight with the powerful wind. I speak the louder sound to compete with the wind sound and increase my speaking speed. I seems just like one eagle rushing into the tempest. That time, my voice and loud wind blend with each other around the building roof fiercely.
‘Oh, when did you wake up morning? We all wake up now and want to eat at first floor, will you go to eat together?’ Now the time is 8:30. ‘You go with them, I have eaten before’ I go straight into classroom. I didn't wake up early, can you image when I left out the dorm?' '5:30, isn't it?' writer answered with the suspicion.  'Or 4:00? I just stayed at dream.' The blue man interrupted. ' Oh, near the answer, go on ' I encouraged. ' You are strong enough and don't need the enough sleeping time. Next morning, you call me and I'll go with you. ' ' Of course, if you can wake up on time and can hear the clock bell, Ha. ' I kidded to him. ' Don't be laughing to me, everyone cannot make the forecast about what happened tomorrow .' He lovely angered about it. ' Oh, well, see all of you tomorrow OK? ' I said unconvinced. I'll demonstrate what I say '
I just feel I spend my life at two contrary side in this school. Sometimes I attend the party, to see the film or go to the KTV with them, and almost feel enjoyable when I stayed with them. But I never put my heavy stress down when I intoxicatedly sing the recent pop-song and thoroughly express my passion. After sung one MV, at the intermission of the party or when the inventor let us enjoy the carnivals at the end, I suddenly feel lonely, fragile. Oh I just enjoy the party, why will I feel like this? I even can't believe myself. It's the truth, though, I know I'm not great or superior enough, I am not the man who excelled in one field beyond others. Perhaps once a person have is adult and has the responsibility to his family, his friends even his country he will not feel thoroughly comfortable or really relaxed any more even he spends the time in entertainment. Or it's merely my personal character. I'm not good at enjoy the life with others, but feel well enough if I stayed at home with music or book. Actually, we can't do everything and put passion in it anytime. The world cannot fascinate us at every corner. Maybe, during all the life, someone can't feel attractive about what they dislike instinctively. It is wisdom to do what we excelled as the far/the conditioned permit as possible. Every one has the limited lifetime, at the largest, more or less one hundred years. And the most energetic period is when we are youth or at adolescent stage. To develop the talent completely is reasonable and requiring. I can't image if I spend all my time with many works I dislike. Sometimes I will give up what I hate even the abandonment may let me pay the price for it. It is worthy if I spend more time with my beloved film, music or novel even others may say I waste my time.
The life cannot be too boring or dull, insipid. For me, it should be full of passion. If one man spent half of his life but he never memorised some excited events or some worthy, meaningful time that can demonstrate his life value, other words, life is same as the wind blowing slightly and bring him to the end without traces. It will let others feel, the his life is just the pity.