Tonight called home as usual. Mom asked me about my intentions on the future. I do not intend to go on study but work in society. Mom said "why not connect your cousin, she may help you find a place in XX company." I don't wanna do that, one reason is that I don't like to bother others,even though she is my relative. I'd like to do things with my own efforts. If unfortunately I failed ,maybe I will ask for somebody's help. And it is only happened that when it's not possible for me to complete it all my myself. Secondly, I want to experience the process. I always think that we need to experience something since we live in the world. There's always something we need to experience. And I want to undergo regardless of the result. Though it will be tough, I still want to go through it. Maybe sometimes it doesn't take you anything, it still gives you a chance to experience. Just like few days ago,when Fan Weiqi holding a concert in our school hall, I just went to see it. Though it wouldn't help me anything in my life , I still felt the atmosphere of live concert. Such things one time in life is enough. I experienced it and I knew it ,that's enough.
So I made up my mind to find a job on my own, no matter what the result will be.It's my life and it's my fate.