I need to work much much harder, otherwise the distance between he and me will become wider and wider.

“What is he doing at this moment?” It’s a long-time-no-see question to me. But these days, this question occures to my mind whenver I am free of the work. I ask myself on my way to the office; I ask myself when I look at the traffice jam on the overline bridge…I don’t know how long it’s been since I ask myself this question last time. But the heart is full of sunshine. Though I don’t know the answer, the heart is warm.

Am I falling in love with him? I don’t know and I don’t care. It’s admiration, I can tell it’s admiration. But so what? You know, finally I know what I keep missing Tony even though the romance between he and I was ended about three years ago. “Why do you like him?” For a long time, I don’t know how to answer this question. But now, I have some ideas: he has my admiration; I don’t know whether it’s love. And this time, same case.

I may be nothing to him. But it doesn’t matter. I will laugh at myself when I look back years later. But it doesn’t matter either. To me at this stage, as long as there is some one I can think of, it’s enough to put smiles on my faces.