Guangzhou, 22:41, raining. How’s the weather in your city?

Nancy said via cellphone it’s wet in Shantou. The sky has every sigh that it’s about to rain, but the fact is the rain doesn’t come.

Emma said in QQ it’s not raining in Shenzhen.

Mama said via cellphone it’s a cool in Huizhou. “Dress more. Take notice of the weather changes.” Mama added. Besides, Mama asked me to have my savings from now on—

“You can’t spalsh your money as before, for you have to grow up and you have to take care of yourself.”

“Of course I know.” But though I know what I should do, I’m not used to money calculator. All I am able to do is, I can promise I will invest a lot on my eating and dressing and before running out of salary, I will not have my stomach empty. I mean it. Now I am in my peak age. I don’t want to save every penny by biting steamed buns in the morning and only drinking water in the evening and by wearing clothes which are out of date many years and of bad quality. It’s not necessary to do that. Life is to enjoy, not to suffer. Even what we have to suffer is to help us to enjoy life better. It’s true that there are something that everyone is doomed to expeirence, to suffer, to learn. But can’t I confront my life in my best conditions? I will take risk, I will prepare myself for failure and for bitterness. But can’t I face them with my sweetest smile? I lose my time second by second and I want to have the most beautiful myself in most of the time. Of course, savings is necessary. I need money to help me out in some unexpected situation.

“I still hope you can get a certification for teacher qualification? I hope you can get that exam.”

“Mama, I know what I want and what I don’t want. For this moment, teacher is not what I want.”

“But I still think being a teacher is better than you working in some companies.”

“Mama. You don’t understand. How many people get that paper by thinking like you? But you know what, thanks to them, the whole level of teachers are dereseasing, rapidly. They want to be a teacher, not out of helping children and fulfuling their goals, but thinking in your way. What’s more, though a teacher seems to be always related to high salary, many vocations, repectable position. This is “What it seems.” No pain, no gain. You don’t know how much time and effort such a teacher has invested; you don’t know how heavy his shoulder is. In every position, if you want to have high salary, you have to use your time your efforts to exchange; you want long vocation? You need to lower your expectation on your salary and also your position. Everything is 等价交换. I like my job now. It gives me chances to learn and to practice; it provides with platform for my growing up. Can’t you just support me?”

Somehow I will annoyed everytime Mama talks about the teacher qualificaiton. I hate that. What’s worse, a message I got from Mama is “Your father thinks you can join the army and be a soldier. The treatment for soldiers is very good. Much better than 帮人打工。”…I was speakless. Sufferings, bitterness, mis-orient are the essential ingrediantes for growing—I know this, but why they can’t see? I know, they hope I can have a good life. But not in that way……

“Ok. But I hope you can still come back to Huizhou. The product prices and also the house rent in Guangzhou are very high. You come back…”

You know, now I can picture what will happen in my near future: first, I don’t want to leave my work in Guangzhou, but Mama and Papa insist me go back Huizhou; second, I won’t marry until I’ve my economy independent and also my Mr. Right, but Mama, Papa and Emma will insist me marry at the age of 26. We will have many quarells in these topics. I can imagine…

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Ok, here is raining, most comforatble weather for sleeping. Good night.