Sunday, December 02, 2012

 

The sunshin is irresistable. The sunshine in chilly winter days is irresistable.

 

And now, sitting on the colorful jigsaw floor, leaning against the low bedside, gnawing the sweet potato slices, I am typing my small little happiness into this laptop.

 

I.

 

The mobile range. It must be the alarm clock, ignore it, I said to myself in mind. But it kept rinning. - -, listened carefully—it’s not the alarm clock, but the ringtone?! Da re?

 

My hand reached the mobile and put it closer to my eyes: it’s 10:00, from Aunt Yan.

 

“Hello?” I thought my tone was, in Chinese, 欠扁的.

 

“Hello~What are you doing?” I could hear Dengshuai, my little cousin’s voice on the other hand.

 

“Sleeping.” I was very honest. Aunt Yan knows clearly what I am. Need not to pretend.

 

“Then, see you.”

 

This is the end between our communication. But after a while—I had no idea how long it was, the mobile range again. Opened my eyes, listened carefully. Ok, it’s a ringtone, not alarm clock. It’s from Mama.

 

“What are you doing?”

 

“Sleeping.”

 

“Don’t wore so hard on your job.”

 

“En.”

 

“You will cook for the lunch then?”

 

“Maybe.”

 

“Poor girl. If you are in Huizhou, then I can cook soup for you. You and Liang Shan need not eat the taken-out food.”

 

“We don’t work in Huizhou, it’s very natural for us to eat these. But don’t worry, Liangshan and I will take good care of ourslves. ”

 

“Then, you go on sleeping.”

 

“En.”

 

I was about to cut the phone.

 

“女儿！如果有合适的，那就拍拖，知道不？”

 

“知道了。”

 

Always. Mama didn’t forget to remind me at the end.

 

 

II.

I failed to go on sleeping after talking such. Seated myself up, leaning againg the headboard, I opened the laptop placed on the bedside and checked the emails. Then, I saw a letter from a girl, an applicant. The title is “一封信激起的勇气”. I read it, from the top to the end. And I replied.

 

III.

 

In 2006? 2007? I was eager to have a computer, with access to internet. What I wanted at that time was to have a MP3 and copy the song 晓之车 and repeat it again and again everytime I was lying on bed in every evening. Once I thought, I would be downed in this happiess. But, on three oclock am last night, when I re-watched the Manga again, and downloaded the song via Kugou using more than one minute, somehow an unnamed feeling seized me. I can’t call it sadness, the feeling. But…此情，此景，此歌，是多少个夜晚前LY的梦想，但是，如今的LY拥有了这些，却没有找到那个LY预想的幸福。